I have always tried to live my life with "the flow" of the direction I feel my life is supposed to follow. Part of this, and it may seem like a trivial part, is the urge to clean. I have what I like to call "high energy" days and "low energy" days.
A high energy day is a day when you get up and feel like you need to "accomplish" something. This could be re-organizing your cabinets, yard work, cleaning, or paying the bills. It doesn't really matter what you do, all that matters is that you have this urge inside you to get it done and you just "know" that you can do it and not get tired.
A low energy day is a day when you get up and you don't feel like doing anything. You might sleep, shuffle around in your pajama's all day, not shower, read, the list is endless. It doesn't really matter what you do on days like this either, and do not make the mistake of torturing yourself for not doing any of those things on your list.
We need both kinds of days. The low energy days are days when we need to take a break and nurture ourselves, let ourselves rest, concentrate more on our spiritual lives. The high energy days are when we have been given the gift of energy, and applied correctly, can make us able to enjoy the next low energy day guilt free.
Guilt free is a good way to go through life. It's not easy, of course, and it's doesn't come quickly, but you can get there if you catch that wave of the high energy day and ride it all the way to shore.
I have had such a day. I have had two of them. I can barely raise my arms above my head, and I'm still a lttle jiggly, but every muscle in my body is tight and I feel like a weight lifter. I also feel like the Queen of my castle.
It's not a big secret or anything, but this is what I did: I cleaned my carpets. The entire upper floor of my house today boasts clean carpets. It smells wonderful. The Grand Finale was none too thrilled about it, to say the least, but did the Queen care? No. What we have not actually washed down this weekend we have dusted and put away, and put away where it belongs, not stuffed it under a piece of furniture. I feel ready now, and this is the best part of high energy days.
I felt this surge coming on, you will too if you concentrate on them. For $25 I rented a steam cleaner from a friend, helping her out with some cold hard cash, and that gave me the weekend.
If you "work out", I say good for you. I am just wondering who cleans your house, because I am here to tell you that you can get an intensive, free workout at home just about any time. I spent about 4 hours Friday night and Saturday slowly, slowly moving a heavy machine across the floors of my house. By Saturday night I felt like I had dug a ditch, or maybe a grave. I took a very hot, very long bath and went to bed at 7:30 pm. Today I got up around 8 am and have spent the whole day in my pajama's watching movies. I did fix breakfast about 11 am and need to go see about fixing another meal now, but the point is I am enjoying a low energy day. And what muscles I do have left ( I use this term loosely, I don't really think I have any left) all feel toned. Today I almost went out and started raking leaves and burning those, but the wind was blowing and the urge left me. Just like that, I knew it was a low energy day, and I smiled and got comfortable on the couch, guilt free. It rarely gets any better than that.
Enjoy the ebb and flow of your life, and the simple joys that make it worth living. Tomorrow is another day and no telling what it will bring. Be ready to go with the flow.