Without getting too personal, I just have to say that it has come to my attention that many people who have been living through very tough times are now experiencing healing.
Sometimes this takes strange twists and turns, but things seem to be coming together, and for many people. Every step toward healing counts, and those steps don't have to be the physical kind. Celebrate each and every one.
I have noticed in my own life that these things tend to happen in spurts, so to speak.
At any rate, you might want to take a moment and count your blessings. I certainly am.
Whether you have reached the top of your personal mountain or the depths of your personal hell, whether you are finding strength in anger, resignation or plain old fashioned stubborn "keepin' on", more power to you. Find your strength and apologize for ever doubting the awesomeness that is you. Treat yourself better. Get off the merry-go-round that always brings you pain and then just keep walking forward. The world won't end.
Why are we always so surprised that we can do that and the world doesn't end?
Because we have enormous egos. And quite melodramatic imaginations....
But we are only human and besides that, we earned them,.
I don't know if it's the planets aligning or if maybe those 10 inches that the earth moved on it's axis during the Japan quake could have something to do with it. It happens this way sometimes. I'm just pointing it out.
Listen to the still small voice inside and then believe, whether you are scared or not, just believe.