A Day of Chores............

Everything outside is jumping, and that means lawn mowing time is upon us.

Last week my dad came over to change the oil in the lawn mower and sharpen the blades.  It seemed like a pretty easy task.  He showed up in the morning, when the twins were at school, and assured me that he needed no help.

He did not need help, but I almost had a nervous breakdown watching him wench up the mower with chains over the rafters of the garage.  Everything went smoothly except for me having visions of it falling on him and him lying helpless on the floor, slowly dying while I run around trying to decide what to do and who to call.

None of that happened.  He worked on the mower and I painted woodwork for trim on the back porch, where I could hear him if he should call for help.  He didn't call.

What he did do, once he got the mower all wenched up in the garage, was take a walk outside to the front of the house.

You have no doubt heard me talk about how my mother cleaned house.  Her method was to decide to clean something, say the buffet.  She would drag everything out of all the drawers, dust the top, and then spend about 4 hours going through everything in the drawers and "organizing".  After 4 hours, she would suddenly remember what time it was and shove everything back into the drawers.  For next time.  Now, she could have just dusted the top.  In about 2 minutes, but that was not her method.

I have discovered that I do not just get this kind of method from 1 side of my genealogical tree.  Although at least my dad finishes what he starts.

Even if it takes all day.

Once in front of the house, he declared it to be a good day to take out the shrubs in the front of the house.  We all hate these shrubs, including the neighbors.  Luckily for us, the neighbors, my aunt that I never had, Janine, and her husband Jack, have the cutest little red tractor, and they had it out this day. 

Shrubs: begone!

Jack was hailed, he reported for duty forthwith, chains were rounded up and the shrubs were tackled in a death grip.

It's a good day to die, shrubs.

Although the pictures do not show it, I helped my dad plunge into dead leaves, wasp nests, and possible snake lairs to attach the chains.  Sometimes 2 chains were needed, and multiple scratches were acquired by both of us, but eventually those shrubs came out.

Goodbye, cruel world.

By the time we were half-way done, I noticed that it was really hot outside and remembered that I think I forgot to put on deodorant that day.  My father assured me this would only give the snakes more time to get out of the way.  We did not see any snakes, but we did spend many hours on the look out.  I do not mind if I see them first, however, my father does a dance that few have seen and that defies actual description when he spies a snake.

I worried about him throwing his back out, and to be honest, how many times he could actually keep getting up and down in a day.  I didn't know about him, but it was about to kill me, and I'm younger.  Just saying.

Half-way there.  Keep on trucking.

We plugged along with the shrubs coming out pretty easy, once we got them hooked up.  The hooking up was the hard part.

Once out, it was around the back to the brush pile.  We had plenty of limbs but these shrubs would make good fire starter material once they dried out.

Note to self: buy hot dogs and buns.

There is a very big bonfire in our near future.  Yes, that is my back yard, and we need to mow it.  There is quite a large area under lots of limbs and now shrubs that we cannot at this moment get to, but it will be all burned off within a few weeks.   A fresh start.  Also, strangely, the dogs have dug a hole big enough to plant a small tree in the back yard.  I am at a loss as to why they stuck with this particular hole, because they have never showed such dedication before.  But this is big.  I think a Willow would be just perfect, but them again maybe just a large bush........well, I don't have to decide right now.  But soon.  My list is getting longer and it's all still in my head.  I haven't even written it down yet.....

All gone.

By the time the twins came home from school, the shrubs were out, the mower was still wenched to the rafter in the garage, and my dad decided it would be a great time to run the old water heater to the metal recycling center.  To get that out of the way.  Into town they went. 

I stood there, observing the bare but messy ground, and my mind was filled with what to put in there.  Four O'Clock's for sure, more bulbs, perhaps a trellis and something to climb up it.  Vegetables?  I have those tubs my brother cut up for me......This faces East, blah, blah, blah.......I don't have time for this!  This entire day has been spent and I haven't really done any of my work!  Best to just walk away and see what happens.  I get it from both my parents.  It's the way God made me............enough of this, I was wasting time.

I looked at the clock.  It was 4 pm.  I started to warm something up because I had not eaten that entire day, and I was pretty sure my dad hadn't either.  I also needed to think about supper.  

I warmed up chicken and noodles and mashed potatoes.  My dad showed back up and took in to sharpening blades.  I worried about him cutting himself and bleeding to death, (doesn't he take a blood thinner?) and made him eat something. Yes, made him.  When I asked him if he was hungry he said yes, but he wasn't going to eat because Geri was making supper.  Well, of COURSE she was!  It was 4:30 in the afternoon by now!  I used my "tone" to point out that he hadn't eaten all day and it was ready, so he agreed to a small bowl of noodles.  And appetizer, if you will.  The boys never had come back and at this point I really didn't care if they ever did.  I was exhausted and too tired to really make supper.

Eventually, about 6 hours after the initial job was started, all the jobs were finished.  I was so happy!  I collapsed on the back porch and what did I see but Janine and Jack over there---get this----cleaning out the gutters on their house.  OCH!  I hadn't even considered that, and hope to our sweet Lord that my father hasn't either.  I had to marvel at their strength, not to mention wonder where it came from.  I thanked God again for such wonderful neighbors.  This led to me wondering if my dad would even be able to get out of bed the next day.  I chuckled, remembering how he kept looking at me when I would offer to help or express concern over his ability to lay on concrete multiple times in one day.  I doubted he would be back tomorrow.

In the end the boys did come home, I did feed them.....something,  I can't even remember what, all the jobs were finished, and nobody got hurt.  I told myself I was just obsessing, or being pessimistic, but the voice in my head just said "We'll see".  

In a cryptic tone.

That voice is beginning to get on my last nerve.

Days Like This..........

We have been blessed with some rainy, stormy days lately.  I love rain.  I also love storms.  My 50th birthday is looming on the horizon, and I have been watching baby calves come along in impressive numbers, flowers bursting forth, and petals showering down all around me.

Forsythia through a rainy window in March, 2015.  Pregnant cow in background.

One day you get up, and it's rainy and chilly. 

The next day you get up, and it's foggy but the sun is coming out.

The next day it's beautiful and 80.

After that the wind blows everything like crazy and all the leaves you thought you had raked up are right back where I guess they must belong.

I leave that to God, largely.  There is just so many things that I can handle on my own. 

Leaves do not make the list.

I am not even sorry.

This is a picture that didn't turn out very well, but the sun was coming up and the cow's breath was making misty clouds that I could see much better than I got in this picture.

I took the picture just to jog my memory. 

Sadly, you, my friends, will have to imagine it.

I guess maybe you had to be there.

Then the sun came up and I went ahead and looked right into it.
After all, I am 50 now.  Well, almost.
I can do what I want.
I told myself the camera was a filter.
I probably could even have used some kind of different setting.  Perhaps this is the year I will learn about that.
Perhaps not.
We will just have to wait and see!
It'll be a surprise.

Go ahead and look, kid.

It was the week before my birthday, I was just feeling great.

We were headed over to my brother's for the day to cook out and work on the yard.

The boys were driving their own truck with both dogs loaded up, thrilled for a ride, and it was a beautiful day.

I just felt so very blessed, I had no idea why.

The fact that my dad was calling wondering why I wasn't in church and my new-found neighbor/aunt I never had was texting me asking the same thing began to give me clues, though.

My flock.  I would be lost without them.

Unbeknownst to me, my church family had planned a surprise birthday party for me, complete with dead flowers and everyone dressed in black.

It was a God wink to me to find this church.  The pastor's name was Rob Wood.  Those of you from Browning, Mo will recognize this name, carried by one, and carried still by another, unforgettable people.

How could I miss another Rob Wood?

That would be crazy and I can't even go into explaining why.

Those who know, just know.  ;)  It's a Browning thing.

But I digress.

This church, led by Rob Wood, is so laid-back and comfortable, it's more like successful group therapy than church.

I mean that in the best way possible.

If you feel the need to throw something in, well, you just do.

Rob said someone once asked him about what "program" he used to get the congregation to interact with each other, and he just laughed.

It's a family.  You would just have to come and see for yourself.

Highway O. Newton Co, Mo.  Wanda is the name of what used to be the town.  You can't miss it.  Just come see and tell me I'm wrong.

Heck, I dare ya.

Anyway......

Yes, I missed my own surprise party.

That was really disappointing.

And embarrassing.

But since it's not my fault, because I didn't know, we went on with our day.

I would later come home to find these thoughtfully wrapped bouquets on my front porch, where I had just sat feeling so blessed that morning and not knowing why.

Look at the care they took with the ribbons!  :D

But that would all be discovered later.

At this point we were headed to my brother's place with the dogs proudly tasting the wind all the way over.

Once there, I dropped the potato casserole into my sister-in-law's arms and headed straight to the bathroom, where I was proud to have made it without peeing my own pants.

Because, hey, I am almost 50 now.

Comes with the territory. Prepare yourselves now.  I speak the truth!

Within a minute and half I can hear the sounds of a dog fight in the front yard.

My heart is pounding, but what can I do?

Because I am almost 50 now, absolutely nothing but sit there and wait for my poor old bladder to be done and hoping fervently that our next stop is not an emergency room or the digging of a grave for a beloved dog.

Maybe two!!

When I finally get out, I rush to join my sister-in-law at the front door.

We observe my own Shadow and her sweet Patch at each other's throats, with Jack frantically barking.  Jack seems a little unhinged.

Apparently when my dogs came into Patch's yard, he was all like "OH NO YOU DIDN'T"

and Shadow was all like "THESE ARE YOUR MANNERS?  YOU DIRTY CUR! DON'T YOU KNOW I'M THE QUEEN??!"

And Jack was just like "YIKES! WHAT IS GOING ON HERE? PLEASE STOP THIS MADNESS! I WANT MY MOM! "

Both my boys had one of our dogs each, my brother had Patch, all the men were straining to hold a dog back and all the dogs were barking and making noises like they were, in fact, killing each other.

At least, that's how it looked to us from the safety of the doorway.

Suddenly, at some signal, my youngest baby just picks Shadow, bodily, up, and she just lets him.

She does not bite off his head, or claw his face into shreds, or scalp him, or anything.

She just lets him pick her up, possibly because she is the queen, and he calmly walks back to the truck and deposits her, where she stays.

It was like a miracle.

My oldest baby follows suit with Jack.

Once again I am so thankful and happy for my brother.

He can fix anything.  He really can.

His presence around my boys, and I believe their presence around him, is a blessing that just keeps giving.

In the most unexpected and surprising ways.

So, it is decided that I will take our dogs back home.

Thank God I peed.

So into the back of the amazing HHR go the dogs.

Shadow is tired.  Jack is staying as close to his Mama as possible.

Shadow seemed a little confused and a lot tired, but still regal.  She made herself comfortable and had nothing to say whatsoever.

Queens do not concern themselves with the opinions of peasants.

At least not once they are safe on a feather bed in the back of their mom's car.

Jack stayed as close as he could get to me the entire way home.  He was a little amazed to find that Shadow let him have the middle.

This is why the "princess" syndrome is a bad idea, people.

Shadow is not, in fact, the queen of the world.

She was very disappointed to find this out but I think she got a good picture of what can happen in the real world.

Live and learn, Shadow.  Live and learn.

I am very happy to have your company in this endless journey of lessons learned the hard way.

Jack has my six.  Or something.  If you have never traveled with a dog sniffing the air behind your head, I feel sorry for you.

So I delivered the dogs back home, told them they were the best dogs in the world, and treated them to a big bowl of leftover stew.  Why not?  Nobody even got hurt.  

I took it all in stride, as 50 year old's do.  We've seen it all before.

  I sang a few bars of  Days Like This, and I gloried in being flexible.

Oh, and on my way back to my brother's for the second time, I saw this little mister, who had recently joined us.

His eyelashes are about 4 inches long and I do believe he batted them at me a couple of times.

I could have snuggled up with him and just lay in the sun the rest of the day, to be honest.

Is he not adorable?

Back I went, over the rivers and through the woods, to my brother's house.  We had a great meal and did a lot of yard work, and laughed about dogs and territories and life in general.

My sister in law confessed she was in heaven.

So was I.

All around us our boys were working.

We went over all her flower and vegetable beds, I got some honeysuckle starts, and many, many leaves were destroyed.

Don't get excited, these are pin oaks we are dealing with, and many 

leaves also remain.

But we do love to burn.

It's how God made us. *shrugs*

Meanwhile, all the bulbs I had been waiting for.....

Early blooms but many more coming.......

Really got to going!  Blooms were bursting forth!  Music was playing!  (Ok, that was just in my head.  I think....)

Every day there are more!

A fairie's view from inside the flower basket.

Within a few days, that flower basket looked full and overflowing.

Purples, pinks, yellows.

Hyacinths, Pansies, Jonquils, Muscari.......

Tulips are on deck.

I still haven't removed the leaves.  We still have some frosty mornings ahead.

So, the crazy day came to an end.

What a day it had been!

I even made it home with a few barrels my brother cut in two for me.

I think I will put vegetables in them on the South side of the house.

I thought, that morning, about the last six months of our lives.

I thought, if someone would have told me last year that all this would happen.........what would I have thought?

I thought about fireplaces, and the twins getting snowed in at my brother's, and having my nephew in our home.

I thought about the night I had to cut him off of pop and hilariously heard "I'm All Out Of Love" blaring from the boys' room.

It had somehow found it's way into a show they thought was "cool" and later that night my nephew complained about it being stuck in his head.

I told him he now knew what it was to have survived the 80's.

Don't believe me?  Just click on the link I thoughtfully included for your listening pleasure.  Ah cha cha.  You are welcome!

I thought about what the next 6 months may hold for us.......

The twins will graduate next year.

I am going to Germany with my brother's family for 3 weeks.

The last year has brought a lot of change, almost all good.

I thought about the people I was so sorry to leave on a daily basis, but how I was so glad not to have that job anymore.

I thought about this crazy, mixed up day, and all that had happened.

Whether I was there or not.

This was just one day.

I thought about how my family would function without me, and how life has a rhythm that goes on with or without us, and what a comfort that is as I get older.

How much I love watching the seasons change and how much better life is when you put those things in your mind

and just let that be your world.

Let the flowers bloom, the babies come, the children grow, and the dogs grow old with me.

I can't wait to see what comes next.

50 is looking awfully good to me.

But the best part?

The best part is that I do get to be here.

My present to myself this year is to be more present in the moments I am here, and to worry less about what comes tomorrow.

Because what comes to tomorrow is still going to come.

Whatever it may be.

My grandmother's would have said this as "No need to borrow trouble."

They would have been right, and I love getting to be the age where I can offer sage advice, knowing it's true whether anyone believes me or not.

There will come a moment, someday, when they will remember what I said and know.

They will just know.  That I was right.  That I knew what was coming, even when they did not, and that I rested sure in their abilities to handle it.  

How much I loved them.  How you can dance in the rain, enjoy the storms, live to see the next day, and live that by the seat of your pants, too.

Life will go on.

With or without me.

Now get out there and dance.  Greet a newborn creature.  Watch the seeds  you have planted bloom.

Make a cup of tea when you hear that thunder and get out to the porch to watch the storm.

You might be surprised how much you enjoy it.

The Eagle Has Landed......And Built a Nest......

So a friend of mine called me last weekend and said they had found an eagle's nest.  I was very excited and traveled to see it.

I made a journey by car, on a highway, switched to a four wheeler, through a field, walked through some quasy-muddy timber, and came upon this.

There were lots of smaller trees between us, but my chief concern was attack.  Eagles are not to be toyed with and I could just see us getting snatched bald-headed if not decapitated by some miffed parent who can see for a mile, possibly miles, people(!), and has claws and a beak that can break your bones.  Or pluck your eyes right out of your head.  Or just your tongue, first, depending on it's mood.....You get the picture.  Safety first, when at all possible.  

Now, my friend, being a more practical and reality based, rather soothing presence, was just worrying about eagle poop.  So we stayed out of range of THAT and used our camera's to zero in.  I don't know if this is Mr. or Mrs. Eagle, but since they never actually pointed their beady little eye at us and at least screeched "just to let you know I see you, you nosy little creatures!", I think it was the Mr.  I could be wrong, of course.  It just seemed to have that "don't bother me unless I have to kill someone", kind of male vibe, to me.

But I could be wrong.  I am no expert. All I wanted was not to be attacked, snatched bald-headed, or have my eyes plucked out of my head by an angry eagle parent.  

So, we took lots of pictures.

He did not lower himself to notice our presence, which was the most I could have hoped for, and we just watched him (or her) look around and I assume guard the nest.  I guess if there were eggs someone would be sitting on them, anyway.  Maybe she was and he was guarding both heart and home.  But we never saw 2 at the same time.

It was a great time.  I didn't even notice any bugs or mosquitos.  It might have still been too cold at night.  But just look at that nest!  And that bird!  One of my favorite parts about being down here is that I see eagles almost every day. 

But not like this!  Remember to always look up.  Lots of stuff goes on that is simply amazing and most people don't even lift up their heads to see it.  Lori used to say that, and it has always been so true.  She comes back to me a lot lately.  She would have loved this, and it was so good to have her with us in spirit.  

It was a good day.

We stayed there long enough for me to imagine a story around this knothole in a tree

As a doorway for some small forest creature.........

What lies through the door?  A mansion?  Cobwebs?  A snake that will eat you up?  A wise owl that will take you in?  We don't know.  .......and I've wandered completely away from the subject at hand, but that's how it goes in the woods.  I think you probably need some time in the woods.  I know I did.

I prescribe some time outside with the sun warm on your shoulder's, wild flowers blooming, some mud, some green new grass, and if you are very lucky, an eagle suffering your presence with resignation.  You will feel better.  Unless the eagle attacks you!!  Don't forget to be safe first!!  Yeah, I have a little bit of a thing about that!  

Happy Spring.